As performed at Existence is Resistance webinar hosted by AWID, IPPF, GATE, TYI Uganda and ITF. As performed at Lyrical Lunacy, Bangkok, Thailand.

if chapters of my life were cliches you’d be my biggest one
but in a good way

you see, only the moon hears me repeating your name while you’re awayand only the sun sees my disappointment when i wake, and you’re not beside me

if orchids ceased to exist tomorrow, then you’d be the only shade of blue i’d settle for,

our song was one that said that i’d hold you tighter than a sold out show,
and another said i’d set you free if that’s what you wished

but believe me, my love, that i’d suck the air from my lungs before i stop taking your name
if our intertwined lives had a label, it would be one that couldn’t be described in words,
for my love for you, whether we’re together or apart, could only be described as my lifeline,

so, hear this, my love

i don’t believe in marriage, but i’d marry you with paper rings
i’d watch every culty documentary with you,
i’d try to engrave in my brain every side of the moon we see together,
i’d paddle out into every sea and ocean, rough or calm, as long as i’d be paddling to you,
i’d jump off every cliff, with the condition that you were at the bottom,
i’d admire every scar you leave on me,
i’d wear you proudly on my sleeve,
i’d give up all vices and every mind altering substance, if it meant i get to get high on you,
i’d present my heart on a silver platter with a knife beside it,
i’d kiss you in front of every homophobic family member,
i’d drive you to every destination,
i’d wait for you for eternity,
i’d find you in every life i live,

and i would lose you a thousand times if that’s what it took,
i would fight anyone, myself included, to make sure you’re safe,

because at the end of the day, my love,

my dedication to you is enough to win every battle thrown at us,
for all i want, is to take your name as my last breath, to matter only in your gaze,

to be able to say “you can compare me with any other love you have seen, but you’ll never forget a love as unconditional as the one i serve you”

maybe i’m delusional, or maybe, just maybe, this is the most exceptional fairytale never told.